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Archive for May 18th, 2010

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Posted by jkhutchins on May 18, 2010

If you lie to me, abuse my trust, steal from me, and generally treat me like a pariah you don’t get to be my friend.

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Dear Mr. Blumenthal:

Posted by jkhutchins on May 18, 2010

First off, bad move passing yourself off as a veteran.  That is one sin I am not inclined to get over.  Especially in light of your deferments.  Serving in combat in wartime is a heroic act, even if it was against one’s will.  Taking credit for risking your life is not acceptable if you were safe at home while someone else unwillingly took your place.

But that is not why we are here.

Pushing prostitutes off of Craigslist was a very misguided idea.  Prostitution never goes away.  People have been trying for centuries now.  It is just not going to happen.  So, if you really want to do something about it, let prostitutes find a seedy corner and let them stay there.  If you chase them out, they just go somewhere else.  MySpace was very tiresome for the prostitutes.  But Craigslist was perfect.  People who wanted such services knew exactly where to look and everyone was happy.

Online prostitution is a good thing.  You have less sex workers on the street.  It can all stay out of the public view.  Since prostitution is NOT EVER going away, just let people have parameters in which to work.  In fact, if everyone knows and understands the rules, everyone is happier.  Those of us who don’t want to be involved with that particular trade can go on with our lives, wilfully ignorant.  It is the next best option after legalizing and regulating the sex trade.

But, once you disrupt that balance, the prostitutes need to find a new way to advertise.  Now I am getting a slew of requests for people to join my network.  None of them I know, and most of them talking about their hot bodies and how much they want to meet me.  Iwant them to go back to Craigslist where they belong.

Prostitution is NEVER going away.  So let sleeping dogs lie for the sake of the rest of us.

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Bodies

Posted by jkhutchins on May 18, 2010

I am not happy about certain aspects of my life right now.  So, I get fixated on one thing I can control- my weight.

I am female.  Hence I have body issues.  It’s practically preinstalled these days.  Not that the problem is exclusive to women, it just seems to be more pervasive.  It’s no less serious for men.  And it sucks for everyone.

I have spent much of my adult life miserable.  I also come from two lines of short, pudgy people.  Even the thin ones are somewhat potatoesque, although it suits the males of the family better.  So, I’ve spent pretty much my entire adult life overweight.  The thinnest I have been since 1991 or so has in both cases been in the wake of a breakup.  When I’ve been cleaning out the rest of the clutter in my life.

In fact, there seems to be a direct correlation there.  The more junk I clear out, the more weight I lose.  Perhaps it is time to clear out more of the junk.  While I am much happier with my shape now than I was just a year ago, I still have quite a ways to go before I will be satisfied.  I am not talking about supermodel weight.  I just want to look good in clothes where I don’t have to worry about whether the sizes go high enough.

In the meantime, I’ve been exercising.  Pretty hard by my standards.  I try to get at least an hour a day in, hopefully four or five times a week.  After that I start having logistical issues.  Additionally, I am trying to incorporate more passive exercise.  I’ve been climbing stairs instead of taking elevators and things like that for awhile, but I’m trying to get myself to walk over to pick up the boy or go to Target.  I should probably start walking to the grocery store again now that the weather is getting nicer.  The main problem being due to financial constraints I’ve been spending more time at Fred Meyer, which is not so walkable.

What I need to do now is work on my upper body, which is much more tedious.  I can step or bike with distractions.  I’m not so sure how I can achieve that for my shoulders and back.  Perhaps I need weights.

The hard part at this juncture is the food.  When I just get semi-anorexic it’s not hard.  When I am keeping myself busy with cooking it’s much more complicated.   The easiest, cheapest food is carbohydrates.  Protein and vegetables are more expensive to use, and at this point I’m hoping to get by with what is already on my shelves.  And I’m trying not to waste food, so I end up with a lot of carbohydrate leftovers.   It also doesn’t help that exercise, stress, deprivation and other factors are making me crave sweets to an obsessive degree.

Eating with people is also not useful.  I love having someone around, and it is great sharing meals.  But it makes it much harder to starve myself.  I can’t reach into the freezer and have 300 controlled calories that cost me $2.  I have to think more.  This is good from a long haul perspective, but I don’t want the long haul.  I want to fit comfortably into my skinnier jeans.  I want to stop looking pregnant.

I do have the time right now.  Exercising up to 2 hours a day is going to be functionally impossible once I finally get work (although it will keep me busy enough to not snack and I will probably get more passive exercise).  I gain more weight when I am unemployed.  I do have the self-discipline to lose weight.  I lost 30 lbs in the course of about 4 months before, and not that long ago.  I can do it if I want it bad enough.  I’m trying to want it enough.

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Posted by jkhutchins on May 18, 2010

A little bile for a Tuesday morning.

Positively 4th St

I wanted the original but this is not a bad cover.

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