I have decided to retake the bar. I don’t know if I will actually get there, but I have taken solid steps in the direction of doing so. In addition to reading the books I do have, I have gone ahead and spent $50 on a Property E&E. (That is a study guide). I am carrying around a book with me and actually reading it.
I don’t know what will happen if I do get a job. I am far from working 8+ hours a day on my studies. But I am working my way up to that; I’m hoping to soon figure out if I am up to the job or not. Luckily I have time right now. I don’t have to commit for a while. I can’t even sign up to take the bar until October.
Am I scared? Oh yeah. It’s a lot of money and I nearly collapsed last time.
But right now? I have the time. If I do pass, that is a big demon slain. A big one. If I can pull this off, maybe I will even get my motorcycle endorsement. But right now I have little to lose. I might will be bored. But I will learn something. Worst case scenario, I get a job and can’t keep up. Or I don’t get a job and I do take it again. But I feel ready to commit right now in a way I haven’t since fall 2008. Wish me luck.